Paramore-ICaughtMyself
Friday, March 13, 2009
its a job of a civil engineer to make sure everything i create is design to withstand the weight upon it. and the structure i've built troughout this lifetime does not hold up. always i've tried to fix it, only to realise i've added more weight into it..
never expected holiday life to be as hectic as this. i promise alda timbre later tonite which im doubtful about going. i promise some jc mates of soccer this saturday. i promise my secondary schl classmates of bbq this sunday. i promise attending my friend birthday chalet come 21st. i promise attending floorball team chalet come 28th. i promise going overseas with the clan somewhere end of next month. and i promise myself to be free from responsibilities this holiday season. for so much promises that stretches before me, i knew i'll never reach for that impossible. the hope is that i'll be able to effectuate all without compromising life's little blessings; happiness within my ownself. All i have to do now is to get in line , step up to the booth and get that ticket. The freedom thats waiting for me at that fair. The best thing is , i dont even have to get on the rides which everybody wants me to. When i have that ticket , i'll pick my own ride and have a little fun for a change. Just maybe its time to realise that i've done trying making lives of people merrier but not mine..
When i caught myself,I had to stop myself.
Saying something that I should've never thought of you.