hiddiexandria
the extrovert pin up rockstar
singing out his life experiences
& living life as carefree as can be

2007. 2008. 2009. 2010. 2011. 2012. 2013. 2014. 2015. 2016.

for the record, this is the only time whereby i'll let my heart do the talking; for im not the type who let people around me know whats going on with my personal life. im the kind who remembers the past, but never let the past get a hold of me. no doubt what some people say are true, about how sometimes we cant just let go of the past. i cant deny ive been selfish lately, letting u chase me while im here enjoying this chaotic part of my life. working, school assignments, time with friends have no doubt take a huge toll on my life, especially the sleeping time. yet you're still there trying to be there for me, sacrifising most of your time for me and always trying to find time to have our small meet up session. its been years ago that i remember someone else doing those kind of things for me, and now u came into my life. my mind have been acting rather childish lately; always comparing how much care you've given. and reminiscing the past on how someone else could have been better like you. you've been the best, yet im dumb enough to think otherwise. infatuation grow for the new and friendship of the past are lost along the way. thanks for all that you've done, and now i know how much u meant to me. no doubt, from now ill cherish you more, and ill leave all that i was suppose to leave behind. this was'nt a path that i choose, but i know this path was built for me. the wall i built have always fall, and this time i'll build something higher for the both of us to be inside. this is our time, this might just be the moment of our life. this is love.

i hate the fact that we are welcoming week 14 now. i hate the fact that it means exams are nearing. i hate the fact that i have attachments after the exams. i hate the fact that my projects are still not completed yet. i hate the fact that i've been so busy with school and work. i hate the fact that my school grades are dropping. i hate the fact that i've very little time to spend with my friends and love ones. i hate the fact that i spend so little time now for photography and floorball. i hate the fact that i get so stress and emotional at the same time. i hate the fact that i have to think about the saddest possible outcome of my birthday again. i hate the fact that im hating life. and i hate the fact that i cant hate someone... and i hate the fact that i have to type my post this way..

on a brighter note, im really so sick and drain out almost everyday that i have to skip so many lessons last week. i dont even know if that suppose to be positive? what the fish. on a really brighter note, i got to spend two weird weekends with manU and Liverpool fans to support their stars. well in case u still dont know, im a loyal Gunner fan.haha.. its 2am, and i need to continue with fyp. i'll try to upload all my pics sometime soon. hope this would be enough to last another month though. cause i'll be busy spending time with love and second love (assignments) after this. i cant wait for fireworks during Hari Merdeka! and for my special day too. heee. jangan lupe k, its eighteen.. and i'll be at home studying for my exams on that day :( in case u're still thinking on what to get me this year, this are my 3 wishes. a date with hayden panettiere, vanessa hudgens and emma watsons. :) :) :)

before i forget again, here's to wish selamat hari raya yang ke 20 untuk Hid♀, yang ke 19 untuk zul-ika, farhaha, fir, shaiful dan iza (minta maaf bagi pihak yang sudah lepas). Semoga semuanye panjang umur. :)