hiddiexandria
the extrovert pin up rockstar
singing out his life experiences
& living life as carefree as can be

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Dear diary.

The weathers getting bad, and my condition's getting worst. But I've been pulling myself up together this past few days. I took a lot of off days this week. And spend my time alone. Alone. Yes. But I'm happy this way.

Remember how I had a bucketlist of the places I wanna go to with N? Im trying to strike it off one by one but on my own this time. Im enjoying myself. Being back to my old ways, exploring, travelling, walking, photography and books.

Weird Im doing it on my own. Alone. Yet happy. I ignore the hazy weather and strike off Punggol Waterway, Raffles Club, Gardens by the Bay, Arts Museum and two of the cafes on the list. Yay to me. Heee.

Finish most of my pay on buying new books, coffee and films for my cute little cameras. I lost touch in photography. I remember those times where i had N as my model at these nice places. :( But its okay, have to make do with landscape photography nowdays.

I've learned so much doing all these alone. Most importantly I learn to appreciate myself and the nature around me. Sometimes it struck me that it would be beautiful if N was around to enjoy every part of the experience with me, but theres nothing I can do to make all that possible again today.

Alhamdullilah, Kak Ayu condition is getting better. She's still in the hospital now though. Everyone really have to take care of themself these few days. Insyaallah we can go trough this tough times together. Cause He knows we are strong enough to go trough it, thats why he's giving us all this tests.

Anyway it was F birthday. I dont even know if anybody read this shit anymore. Not even F. Nevertheless Im sorry that all I can give you now is this wish here. Happy birthday.

Im pathetic. Haiz. :(

Goodnight.
Love, Me.